Two posts ago, I confessed that I don’t have that many friends in real life. Now I have another confession to make: The Christmas season makes me sad.
It’s not that I hate it, I actually love Christmas. I love the way people are extra-kind and generous. The way everyone’s doing his best to make the season more meaningful — maybe by decking the halls with boughs of holly, giving-gifts-exchanging-cards, and all that stuff. It’s just that, Christmas always leaves me feeling sentimental, nostalgic and vulnerable. That’s never really good for an introvert like me. Heh.
And the mall is just the perfect place to make me feel all mushy inside. Now that they’ve moved the terminal from Landmark to the parking area below the MRT station, I have to walk a long way to get to my ride. I don’t mind the walk, but I can’t say I’m totally enjoying the Christmas-y sights I see and the Christmas-y music I hear when I pass through Greenbelt, Landmark, Glorietta and SM Makati — during which my bag is being inspected five times by five different guards. Jose Mari Chan and Gary V. are once again flooding the sound systems. But you know what I think is the saddest Christmas song? It’s “The Christmas Song” itself! You know, the one with the lyrics “Chestnuts roasting on an open fire, Jack Frost nipping on your nose..” by Nat King Cole? The words don’t mean much to me, but the melody! It makes me feel sad as the song “Somewhere Out There” does. Lol.
Despite the inexplicable mixed feelings I have around Christmastime, I actually have a lot of things to be happy about. This year should be special compared to last year as I’m gonna be spending Christmas eve with my parents and brothers. I say Christmas eve because I consider it more special than Christmas day itself. I’m sure I’m not the only one who feels this way.
As for my best friends, I won’t be able to spend Christmas with them again but I will see them very soon. I’m going home to Bacolod City next week to attend two weddings. One of my barkada is getting married at the end of month, and the other is my high school classmate that I mentioned a while back. Everybody’s getting married! This should be fun. And I can finally have the long vacation I’ve been looking forward to all year with the truest, funnest, bestest friends anyone could ask for! I love coming home. :)
It’s true that Christmas sometimes makes me sad but I still think it’s the best time of the year. Happy Holidays! :)
You wanna know what I mean about Nat King Cole’s The Christmas Song? Play the MP3 below. Boohoo!
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You’re not the only one who feels melancholic over Christmas. Ako rin, especially this Christmas without Daddy around, plus, well, a certain someone who’s halfway across the world away. :( But you’re right, it’s not like there’s hatred at the thought of Christmas. It just feels nostalgic, I guess. We should stroll around malls together, you know, maybe it’ll make it a little bit more bearable. :)
I love this song Jon’! hehe Sorry if it makes you sad. ;) It gives me that warm fuzzy feeling and makes me think about being inside a house, near a fireplace, sipping hot chocolate with family and with piles of snow outside.hehe So far from Christmas in our country, huh? hehe But a little daydreaming wouldn’t hurt. :) Hope to see you in Bacolod!
I really like the melody of that song. I’m not a really big Christmas fan but I miss the feeling that I use to have when I was younger. I hope you enjoy your holidays along with your plans.
Riz: Naku. Baka pag tayo magkasama sa malls around christmastime maiyak lang tayo haha! Let’s prove ourselves wrong. Ipilit natin na masaya ang Christmas this year. I’m sure that’s what Tito Bob wants you to experience. Hehe. Mewi Kwismas, gurl!
Michelle: The song reminds me of the movie Catch Me if You Can. That scene where Leonardo di Caprio’s character was looking through the window of his mom’s new house. She looks so happy with her new family while he’s left all alone by himself on Christmas eve. Huhu. Hehe.
I hope to see you too! pa-spa ta? haha. what are the good spa places in bacolod? Virtu pa lang na-try ko. :)
Exene: Thanks Exene! Enjoy your holidays, too!
I’m so tamad lately jons.. havent posted kahit isa lang dis month.. pressured ako sa work and school :( anyways, we cant see each other sa bacolod :( dec 29 pa ko puli..
You’re a good writer… Keep it up… Happy holidays din sayo! :)
Merry Christmas to you. May this Season bring you joy this time! A great site you have here.
So far from Christmas in our country, huh? hehe But a little daydreaming wouldn’t hurt. :) Hope to see you in Bacolod!