I’ve been hesitant to blog about the latest in the Philippine Blog Awards. I’ve been having weird feelings towards it, but I’ve finally decided to face my fears! LOL. In my previous post, I mentioned how I was surprised that this site was nominated for another special award. I knew beforehand that someone nominated me for the “Bloggers’ Choice Award” just for fun but last week I was surprised to see that 3 of the themes I made were in the “Best Free Custom Theme” entries — that’s what I was pointing out in my previous post — Who the heck nominated those ugly things?!

The next day after I published that entry, the first ones who greeted me in the office were the HR people congratulating me for being, ironically, one of the five finalists. HUH? WHATDA-?! Apparently, Ganns sent an e-mail to some people in our office early that morning telling them about this. (Remind me to kill him next time! :dead:). More than anything, I feel ashamed about it. I shouldn’t be part of something as big as this. I don’t think my work is even worth comparing to the others. I’m not trying to show (false) humility here, I really, really think there’s been some kind of mistake (You and me both, huh? LOL). And like I said before, I’m not a competitive person, and this thing, right here, is very awkward for me. And it also felt awkward answering Jhay’s interview questions.

Oh well, I did say I’ve decided to face my fears, didn’t I? So okay, I’ve finally accepted that it is fate that brought me to this place. A shameful, shrink-if-you-must, dead-end place. Besides, this shouldn’t be as big a deal as I think it is, should it? I really should stop feeling edgy about this. So okay, from now on, this is not a big deal! I’m breezy!

But hey, why don’t we all just focus our energy on the “Best Personal Blog Award”, which is clearly more interesting! My long-time chinita blogger friend, Mae, is part of it. And so is Shari. Congratulations, mga lola! ;)